i’m back!
Posted by: calladencious on: February 16, 2009
i guess i’ve been awy from this blog far too long alr. and i dun think anyone would come to visit anymore but nonetheless, i’m back for a bit of updates.
in just 2 days, i’m going back to nz again.. been spending time in jkt since 5th of dec and finally, in just 2 more days, i have to finish what i’ve meant to do back there in nz. holiday’s gonna be over soon, have to wake up and face the world once again. Though i’ve always hated nz, but i have to think of my future. my future lies there. not here in jkt. the plan for now is once i’ve finished my degree in 3 yrs time( well, hopefully), i plan to work in either aussie or sg. but plans can always change. so hope when the time comes, God will lead me to the right way.
enuf abt the future, for now, i have to settle my feelings well b4 leaving again for nz. i’m scared of leaving home again, but the day will surely arrive. so no matter wad happens, i have to face it and be strong. hopefully no tears will flow on that day.
i’m kinda confused abt the feeling of being in love nowadays. kinda complex if u ask me. sometimes i just want to talk to him and see him, but at times i dun want to see or even talk to him. wad’s this feeling trying to portray? sometimes i miss him, but sometimes i just find he’s not attractive. wad’s happening to me??
updatess
Posted by: calladencious on: September 8, 2008
hi sher.. this post’s for u.. hehe cox i promised to update my blog for u..
i’m still not sure whether to continue posting here or back to my blogger acc.. so i’ll think abt it later..
hmm anyway my life’s been filled with a lot of things.. exciting, wonderful stuff’s going ard me everyday though i feel very bored at times staying here as basically, life’s here w/o frens are torturely boring.. BUT! i’ve alr found many great frens now.. so it’s like i’m more happy now living here in nz.. frens would ask me out every wkend and stuff.. even just for a simple dinner.. i’ll gladly go. i’ve also introduced my younger cousin to them and she’s also getting along well with my frens.. so it’s a good sign.. hee.. i guess i’m really happy these few days.. i’ve been going out a few times alr.. playing pool, going for dinners, chit chatting.. taking photos.. but the photos are mostly in their camera.. haha..
i’m like having my holidays now.. 2 more weeks to go as the 1st wk’s gone.. i’ve been seriously slacking awy for the 1st wk of hols.. but i tell myself i’m gonna catch up on my project this wk and mostly of next wk of my holidays.. if not, i’m sure i’ll become a dead meat as holidays are gonna be over in 2 wks and i have a big project of designing 3 bk covers and preparing my portfolio for my interview at the end of oct!!! i’m so scared seriously.. it’s either i pass my interview and go to the degree course next yr or i’ll fail my interview and go back to indo.. crosses fingers.. argh but i believe God will help me get thru this.. i just got to believe in Him.. =D anyway, happy birthday to sooji, my korean fren.. but i noe u wont be reading this.
anyway some photos to share:
gone back to nz.. bye home.. =’(
Posted by: calladencious on: July 21, 2008
So on the 19th of july, i made my way back to nz after a mth’s stay in jkt.. i almost didn’t wanna catch the plane. i was late anyway.. the reason was that that day when i woke up, i got a stomach upset… is this a sign that i shouldn’t return to nz? But no matter how i hate nz or whatever happens, i still have to drag myself back to nz.. This is really the first time i really really feel so homesick.. when i was studying in sg, i was happy to return to sg.. unlike the feeling now.. i did cry a few times inside the car when my aunt and dad called me.. i cried again silently inside the plane.. i just couldn’t help it.. feeling so emotional now.. but i have to be strong.. this is where my future lies..i can’t just back out as i depend on this studies to get a good title next time when i work.. there’s seriously nowhere else for me to go to further my studies.. it’s either here in nz or starightaway work in jkt.. i’m only holding onto a diploma cert now.. it’s not enough to find a good job.. so i have to be strong.
So anyway, emotions aside, my plane ride was very unpleasant.. was not feeling too well throughout the trip.. was lucky that i have the stomach upset b4 the plane ride.. my mum still got the time to pack some medicine for me to take into the plane. if not i will be going to the toilet a lot of times.. sucky feeling.. not forgetting that this royal brunei airlines doesn’t have a mini tv! they only provide a huge screen at the front wall for us to watch.. and THE SHOWS SUX! they played horton hears a who as one of the shows..-_-”’ the rest of the shows i dun even bother to watch. so throughout the journey, i listened to my ipod until the batt ran low.. haha.. the seat was hard, the food was ok, service was ok but they tend to get run out of stuff easily.. such as the embarkation form and my chicken noodle!! i had to eat fish with rice instead! and the fish was cooked in coconut milk!!! hello?! i’m having a stomach upset and u expect me to eat that.. in the end i only ate the rice and vege portion.. didn’t touch the fish! grr.. but oh well, as a chinese saying goes,”yi fen qian, yi fen huo” royal brunei was indeed a cheaper flight than SQ.. so i’m alright with it despite the matters above. lol
anyway, i met this kiwi(newzealander) inside the plane. we started toking to each other towards the last 2 hours. she’s a fun and lovable girl to talk with cox she’s not like other caucasians.. she actually loves hanging out with asians like me. she was in the phillipines for 6 mths to learn dancing as it’s her passion.. we talked a lot until we alight from the flight. her frens went to pick her up and they offered to send me home! i had to take the shuttle bus where i-dun-even-know-where if they dun gave me a lift. I turned the offer down a few times, but they insist that they drive me home.. they are such angels.. i really think God helped me a lot thruout this long journey.. i can feel his presence whereever i go. ever since i took the plane from jkt to nz.. He’s always been there with me.. (i could have been caught *sensored for protection*) i love u God=)
I feel much better now.. i just need to rant this out somewhere. I know He’s always there for me when i need him. I think frens are very impt to me.. without frens, my life is very dull.. maybe that’s a reason y i dun like nz..
your’s truly is suffering from jet lag now.. when i got home from uni today, i got so tired at ard 5 but my hair was wet so i didnt slp till 8 pm.. it’s like a nap in jkt now!! i woke up at 12 midnite.. indo is ard 6-7 pm.. and i can’t slp now.. i have a theory lesson tmr at 10 am.. preparing to doze off tmr.. hopefully tmr i will receive my essay result.. oh btw, i scored a B+ for my foundation studies module.. i jumped with joy when i found that out. =) all credits goes to God, and my frens who supported me. A REALLY BIG THANK YOU!
should i post photos? haha it’s 1 20 am now.. but i can’t slp.. T_T i post 1st as i’ve not edited the photos=)
see ya peeps and take care.. to my family and frens back in indo and sg, take care and God Bless all of U guys always=)
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Posted by: calladencious on: July 8, 2008
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getting busy>.<
Posted by: calladencious on: June 11, 2008
in the midst of being busy with the final project b4 the holidays, i decided to pen sth down b4 turning crazy soon.. but all of a sudden, i dunno wad to write here.. haha.. inside my brain are just words displaying “PROJECT DRIVE ME NUTS”. i hope i’ll be able to survive till the very end of next wk and achieve a better grade den b4.. i dun aim to get great results.. i just wanna show myself that i can do this..
It’s currently abt 9 degrees outside.. and i’m officially freezing.. not forgetting that my hair is in a wet state now.. so i’m sure everyone can imagine how cold it is here now in auckland.. my stupid heater is not working hard enuf.. it’s still so cold despite turning it on since i-dunno-how-many-hours ago.. argh.. even slping is a hassle to me now.. as i have to wear socks, 3 clothings and 2 pants.. -_-”’ and worst… my weight is gaining non-stop.. no wonder every inter student who studies here always get fatter… wad we do is eat a lot in this cold weather to keep warm and NV perspire at all.. i repeat, we dun perspire at all!!! no matter how hard we run.. like today.. i ran from home to library carrying 8 heavy books and back t the other side of town to meet my sis for lunch.. i didnt perspire at all.. -_-”’ i was hoping this small run will reduce my weight a lil bit.. but i dun think so.. lol..
well anyway.. back to work.. i’ve done ranting here.. so long world.. i’m gonna be a psycho now.. wait.. that’s not the word to use.. suddenly.. i dunno the proper word to use to describe myself.. nvm.. BYE!
New Template
Posted by: calladencious on: May 25, 2008
alrite2, i’ve promised a few ppl to blog ever since i-dunno-when, so basically my life is still full of ups and downs so no matter what, it still has to go on. my projects have been hectic and stressing.. really hated projects not relating to wad i do.. i realli2 hope that i’ll be able to get accepted to graphics degree next yr.. if not, i dun think i wanna continue to study anymore.. though my heart says otherwise. Believe in God.. and keep praying.. i hope to get accepted next yr.. and to my frens whom are waiting to get accepted to unis, just pray hard and believe that u can make it to ur desired course in the uni.. i’ve got to get ready to go out now so i’ll update again soon=) maybe upload some photos.. k then.. bye all!
the feeling sorrow and unwanted
Posted by: calladencious on: April 5, 2008
i wanna go home.. =( i can’t stand it here. feeling so lonely and no sense of belonging here. even the teachers also wanna humiliate me.. being strong is so tough.. y can’t i be stronger in controling my tears.. even though the teacher humiliate me, i shouldn’t have cried. argh.. i dunno wad to do.. i feel so ashamed of myself. God pls save me.. i feel so depressed now.
studio family photos
Posted by: calladencious on: March 11, 2008
lol ok i have not been updating so far.. cox i’m practically busy with uni and most importantly; too lazy to blog.. haha tons of project.. it’s driving me nuts and keeping me busy… rmb that i did a family photoshoot in january 2008? the photos r out so wanna upload it here=D my darling mama post them to me…
Going To Nz soon…
Posted by: calladencious on: February 13, 2008
sorry for being MIA for so long.. didnt have the urge to blog or go on msn.. i was busy playing WOW aka World Of Warcraft.. it’s such an addicting game.. I’ll miss my Character, Calladence after i’m gone to nz as it’s a private server.. so i wont be able to play in nz=( i’ll be gone on the 18th of feb.. which means this coming mon.. i’m so scaredddd… God, please let me get thru this quickly.. these few days starting today have to buy a lot of stuffs… my luggage is full.. but i need more space as my stuff are still a mountain full that needs to be packed! shant say no more.. off to bathe now.. meeting my fren later.. she’s such a sweet one who’s willing to accompany me buy my stuffs… take care to all… see ya guys in nz…
P.S:i’ll be taking Singapore Airlines.. but i dunno wad is the flight no and time as the tix are with my aunt.. hehe.. nvm update again if have the time.. byebye and take care!
my dearest calladence=D
personality test which is so true abt me=D
Posted by: calladencious on: January 10, 2008
Get to know yourself better
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don’t judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren’t necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people’s eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren’t interested in wasting time with people you don’t really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don’t focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don’t ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
well everything is true except the being ambitious part.. cox i dun think i am that ambitious.. i just want to have a nice husband and happy family and gd career next time!
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anyway i wanna change my blogskin alr.. so bored of this one.. i’m still working on it though.. ehehehe cc i need ur help again for the codings=P
anyway, went for a family photo shoot at Tarzan Photo studio today.. i love the make up=D shall post the pics after i received them 1 wk later=) gd nites!
P.s: some pics that i took today after the photoshoot.. i love my make up=D
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