i guess i’ve been awy from this blog far too long alr. and i dun think anyone would come to visit anymore but nonetheless, i’m back for a bit of updates.

in just 2 days, i’m going back to nz again.. been spending time in jkt since 5th of dec and finally, in just 2 more days, i have to finish what i’ve meant to do back there in nz. holiday’s gonna be over soon, have to wake up and face the world once again. Though i’ve always hated nz, but i have to think of my future. my future lies there. not here in jkt. the plan for now is once i’ve finished my degree in 3 yrs time( well, hopefully), i plan to work in either aussie or sg. but plans can always change. so hope when the time comes, God will lead me to the right way.

enuf abt the future, for now, i have to settle my feelings well b4 leaving again for nz. i’m scared of leaving home again, but the day will surely arrive. so no matter wad happens, i have to face it and be strong. hopefully no tears will flow on that day.

i’m kinda confused abt the feeling of being in love nowadays. kinda complex if u ask me. sometimes i just want to talk to him and see him, but at times i dun want to see or even talk to him. wad’s this feeling trying to portray? sometimes i miss him, but sometimes i just find he’s not attractive. wad’s happening to me??